the unavailability of escape mechanisms.

i'm not really sure what to write about. but it's been 2 weeks. so i need to update.


it's been a rough couple of days. please keep me in your prayers. also, be careful what you ask God for. He might actually give it to you.


i think i am going to try to go to the beach this weekend. i wish that i could just get out and go. right now. just leave. in the states now is the time that i would get in my car and start driving. might end up at home. might end up at my parents'. might end up in dallas or siloam springs or tulsa. unfortunately no one has that luxury here. you are stuck. you live where you work. you work where you go to church. you go to church where you eat your meals. you eat your meals where you have your free time. and you have your free time where you sleep. there is no escape. no getting away from things. no running from problems or frustrations or anything else. in some ways that really sucks, but in others it is actually a good thing. being out here begins to strip you of escape mechanisms. it forces you to think about things. it forces you to deal with things. forces you to lean on God, as hard as that can be sometimes.


sadly, a great host of my friends are leaving in the next 10 days, as well as my dad, who leaves on the 13th. that makes me quite sad. i have gotten to spend lots of time with these people, and they are great friends! people i will miss very much! and then dad....i will miss my dad very much. the man who keeps me sane, offers me sage advice, tells me when i am being stupid, teaches me, and loves me. that day will be a hard day, i think.


i've started to volunteer in the cafe here on the ship. that is pretty fun. my favorite part of it is playing great music in the cafe area and getting to chat with all the people passing by (david's favorite things revolve around people or music? no way. i never would have guessed.). lol. anyway.


not much interesting has been going on lately. at least, not from a reader's/onlooker's/person who wasnt me's perspective. especially since the most interesting things are taking place inside me, not outside me. i AM however volunteering with the youth group (that starts tonight), and then volunteering with the worship team here on the ship as well (first meeting tomorrow night).


anyway. not really sure what else to write. this is probably one of my more boring blogs, so naturally something SUPER amazing is going to happen tomorrow. right after this blog is posted. lol.


ciao for now.